This blog has a new title. I felt that "Reflections of the Quagan Poet" was no longer quite right. I am currently avoiding labels, such as "Quaker", "Quagan" and "Pagan". I feel that all labels are restrictive and limiting. I don't require them, at this point in my spiritual journey. Earlier in the year, I altered my "Religious views" on Facebook, from "Quagan" to "Spiritual but not religious".
"Imperfect Expressions" is the title of one of my poems. The poem is about my relationship with the goddess Rhiannon. I realised last night that it would make a good title for the blog.
The URL will not change. I have tried to change blog URLs before, and Blogger won't allow it. I would have to delete the blog and start again, which I don't wish to do - so, the URL will still be www.quagan.blogspot.com.
Peace and blessings. xxx
Thursday, 23 February 2012
Sunday, 15 January 2012
Quagan Label, Sparkey and my Flat-bound Months
I don't currently feel that I am comfortable with the "Quagan" label. I don't feel that I fit in anywhere spiritually, or even want to - but my beliefs remain powerful. I just don't fit in with any of the "clubs", and I don't believe that I ever will.
I am very sad to announce that we lost Sparkey budgie today. I don't want to discuss it, as I have kind of done that already, with a few friends on Facebook. I don't have the emotional strength to "go there" again.
I suppose I just felt that it was time to "check in" again - update this increasingly neglected spiritual blog of mine.
I am not leaving the flat at present, or talking to/dealing with anyone, apart from Colin - except for online (Facebook, etc), which is my lifeline. This has been since the start of November, or at least that was when the "final crash" came. I talk more about this on my other blog: www.paulablogaboutnothing.blogspot.com. I don't really use the blog.com one much anymore, which was my original "general purpose blog". Anyway, I did at least manage to stand outside today in the back garden, and watch my husband bury our feathered baby. That really is a big deal, too - which demonstrates how crazy the situation has got! I know that I need to break the cycle and, once I do, hopefully...I just wish that my tummy problems would improve as those, combined with the mental health issues, seem to conspire to stop me breaking out of "my own cell", as Alanis describes it in "These Excuses".
Anyway, sending love, peace and blessings. Thank you for reading this. xxx
I am very sad to announce that we lost Sparkey budgie today. I don't want to discuss it, as I have kind of done that already, with a few friends on Facebook. I don't have the emotional strength to "go there" again.
I suppose I just felt that it was time to "check in" again - update this increasingly neglected spiritual blog of mine.
I am not leaving the flat at present, or talking to/dealing with anyone, apart from Colin - except for online (Facebook, etc), which is my lifeline. This has been since the start of November, or at least that was when the "final crash" came. I talk more about this on my other blog: www.paulablogaboutnothing.blogspot.com. I don't really use the blog.com one much anymore, which was my original "general purpose blog". Anyway, I did at least manage to stand outside today in the back garden, and watch my husband bury our feathered baby. That really is a big deal, too - which demonstrates how crazy the situation has got! I know that I need to break the cycle and, once I do, hopefully...I just wish that my tummy problems would improve as those, combined with the mental health issues, seem to conspire to stop me breaking out of "my own cell", as Alanis describes it in "These Excuses".
Anyway, sending love, peace and blessings. Thank you for reading this. xxx
Monday, 2 January 2012
Thursday, 22 December 2011
Quiet
I am finding my way in spiritual terms, and I am not currently in "blogging about it" mode.
Starting to explore the site: www.buddhanet.net, as well as various other spiritual websites, including many personal blogs on spiritual themes. More links can be found on: http://paulapuddephatt.tripod.com.
I wrote a short poem, in the build up to this year's Winter Solstice. I just posted it on: www.paulapoems.blogspot.com. It also appears on: http://paulapuddephatt.tripod.com/poetry and I posted it on Tumblr. It was written spontaneously, and didn't go through any real editing process. It expresses deep emotions, a sense of spirituality, a moment captured - was written in a morning after very little sleep. I feel that the poem refers to my feelings about the moon goddess Rhiannon. I have talked about Rhiannon in previous blog posts.
That is all for now. Blessed be. xxx
Starting to explore the site: www.buddhanet.net, as well as various other spiritual websites, including many personal blogs on spiritual themes. More links can be found on: http://paulapuddephatt.tripod.com.
I wrote a short poem, in the build up to this year's Winter Solstice. I just posted it on: www.paulapoems.blogspot.com. It also appears on: http://paulapuddephatt.tripod.com/poetry and I posted it on Tumblr. It was written spontaneously, and didn't go through any real editing process. It expresses deep emotions, a sense of spirituality, a moment captured - was written in a morning after very little sleep. I feel that the poem refers to my feelings about the moon goddess Rhiannon. I have talked about Rhiannon in previous blog posts.
That is all for now. Blessed be. xxx
Sunday, 18 December 2011
So confused
I feel so confused about my spiritual beliefs at present. I will update this blog soon, but I need to think some more first. I feel kind of lost, you know?
Anyway, I hope to experience more clarity soon.
Love and blessings to you all. xxx
Anyway, I hope to experience more clarity soon.
Love and blessings to you all. xxx
Monday, 12 December 2011
Faith
My faith is very strong right now, but I also have so many questions and am confused about my theological beliefs and direction.
I do feel that I am being guided by both God, my Heavenly Father, and Mother Goddess. I feel emotional - and often extremely distressed - but I also experience moments of such intense peace. I have been blessed. I am very unwell at the moment, physically and mentally, but I am very grateful for my spiritual faith - which is all that keeps me going at times.
I do feel that I am being guided by both God, my Heavenly Father, and Mother Goddess. I feel emotional - and often extremely distressed - but I also experience moments of such intense peace. I have been blessed. I am very unwell at the moment, physically and mentally, but I am very grateful for my spiritual faith - which is all that keeps me going at times.
Saturday, 10 December 2011
What is a Quaker, let alone a Quagan?
A friend, earlier this year, asked me what religion I was - hmmm, always a hard one. I started to attempt explaining that I was kind of Quaker Pagan, but I could tell that he wasn't really listening or receptive. He thought that The Quakers had re-written The Bible. He had this idea fixed in his mind, so arguing wasn't worthwhile or productive. Then he insisted that Quakers were "British Mormon Christians", but. the word "pagan" also seemed to register, so I was also duly asked whether I was a "heathen". And his final verdict? I'm a "Quaker Mormon Christian heathen", of course!!! Not bad, actually...
I don't worry too much. My clinical psychologist called after that, and left a really weird message. So who is craziest, anyway??? I'll live with "Quaker Mormon Christian heathen"...:-)
I don't worry too much. My clinical psychologist called after that, and left a really weird message. So who is craziest, anyway??? I'll live with "Quaker Mormon Christian heathen"...:-)
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