I felt sad after writing my last post that I used the words: "I'm not Wiccan and never will be." That seemed too final.
I do feel that I am being specifically tested - which isn't the perfect word, but the best the I can come up with, at the moment - with regard to the OCD vs Pagan/Wiccan faith thing, especially with regard to my obsessions with hygiene.
I'm also not sure now if my Pagan/Wiccan beliefs scare me in some respects, and maybe I'm using Quakerism as a "safety net" - maybe even my OCD and dyspraxia, too. But then I also think that I'm thinking too much, and losing my true spirituality in the process. I need to meditate, and try to feel for the answers. If you read this, please send me positive healing energy. I really need that right now.