Thursday 22 December 2011

Quiet

I am finding my way in spiritual terms, and I am not currently in "blogging about it" mode.

Starting to explore the site: www.buddhanet.net, as well as various other spiritual websites, including many personal blogs on spiritual themes.  More links can be found on: http://paulapuddephatt.tripod.com

I wrote a short poem, in the build up to this year's Winter Solstice.  I just posted it on: www.paulapoems.blogspot.com.  It also appears on: http://paulapuddephatt.tripod.com/poetry and I posted it on Tumblr.  It was written spontaneously, and didn't go through any real editing process.  It expresses deep emotions, a sense of spirituality, a moment captured - was written in a morning after very little sleep.  I feel that the poem refers to my feelings about the moon goddess Rhiannon.  I have talked about Rhiannon in previous blog posts.

That is all for now.  Blessed be. xxx

Sunday 18 December 2011

So confused

I feel so confused about my spiritual beliefs at present.  I will update this blog soon, but I need to think some more first.  I feel kind of lost, you know?

Anyway, I hope to experience more clarity soon.

Love and blessings to you all. xxx

Monday 12 December 2011

Faith

My faith is very strong right now, but I also have so many questions and am confused about my theological beliefs and direction.

I do feel that I am being guided by both God, my Heavenly Father, and Mother Goddess.  I feel emotional - and often extremely distressed - but I also experience moments of such intense peace.  I have been blessed.  I am very unwell at the moment, physically and mentally, but I am very grateful for my spiritual faith - which is all that keeps me going at times.

Saturday 10 December 2011

What is a Quaker, let alone a Quagan?

A friend, earlier this year, asked me what religion I was - hmmm, always a hard one.  I started to attempt explaining that I was kind of Quaker Pagan, but I could tell that he wasn't really listening or receptive.  He thought that The Quakers had re-written The Bible.  He had this idea fixed in his mind, so arguing wasn't worthwhile or productive.  Then he insisted that Quakers were "British Mormon Christians", but. the word "pagan" also seemed to register, so I was also duly asked whether I was a "heathen".  And his final verdict?  I'm a "Quaker Mormon Christian heathen", of course!!!  Not bad, actually...

I don't worry too much.  My clinical psychologist called after that, and left a really weird message.  So who is craziest, anyway???  I'll live with "Quaker Mormon Christian heathen"...:-)