So confused

I feel so confused about my spiritual beliefs at present.  I will update this blog soon, but I need to think some more first.  I feel kind of lost, you know?

Anyway, I hope to experience more clarity soon.

Love and blessings to you all. xxx

How do you reconcile this?

I'm still stuck on the little kid one: "Why does God let bad things happen?"  I'm still stuck on feeling like I'm being punished whenever something goes wrong in my life.  I'm stuck on why so many bad things happen to good people - and animals.  Why is life so unfair sometimes?  I can reason all of this out, but I keep going around in circles and coming back to the same issues. 

Sometimes my faith in God/Great Spirit, The Goddess, The Divine - call it/Him/Her what you will - sometimes that faith feels so strong - but why isn't it more constant?  Why do I get so confused?  I don't stop believing that there is a Higher Power.  I actually almost doubt that the Higher Power is on my side!!!  And I do look at the "bigger picture", but I see so much suffering out there sometimes, and I don't know how to stop myself from feeling depressed.

Faith and hope, and fear and insecurities...

Can we ever know anyone?  Be secure of anyone or anything?  How do we free our spirits from disabling emotions, like doubt and fear of rejection?  Is it normal to feel such a strong sense of faith one moment, and yet at other times, to feel totally lost and alone?