Tuesday, 31 May 2011

I'm still here!

Please be patient.  I really do plan to develop this blog.  I just feel that Quagan blogs are important, because blogging seems to be the main way in which Quagans communicate right now.  I did put a post on a UK group on PaganSpace about Quaganism, but I don't suppose that anyone will answer.  So are all other Quagans in the USA?  I don't know.  It feels that way.  I don't even know if I'm a Quagan at all some days.  I don't know anything some days.

I'm thinking and feeling so much right now, but I can't begin to express any of it.  I remember reading a poem in the small press years ago.  The poet (don't remember who) was talking about all the things that he'd wanted to say to his other half or ex - not sure on any of the specifics now - but I can just remember that the poem ended: "...I didn't know where to begin, so I didn't."  My first instinct was that it was a stupid line, but I came to the conclusion that it wasn't at all.  It has stayed with me all these years, after all.  "I didn't know where to begin, so I didn't."  That is me, on just about every level!!!

Anyway, I'll leave it there for now.  Blessed be.  :-)

Thursday, 19 May 2011

Cherry picking?

So, there are still aspects that I love about both Wicca and Quakerism, and parts which I'm not sure are "for me".  Is that what my husband would call "cherry picking"?  Or, to use another term - "spiritual shopping"?  Or is it spiritual honesty?  Is it actually wrong to "cherry pick"?  Wicca, Quakerism - and I am reading up on Buddhism, too...

Anyway, I need to read more, and make time to meditate.  I need to feel for the answers and find my own way.

Billy Zed (zebra finch)

I am sad to have to say that Billy, one of our zebra finches, has passed away.  He probably died in the early hours of 17/05.  He had been with us since January 2006.  :-(

Wednesday, 11 May 2011

Spiritual poems

I am starting to go back to some of my poems, many of which had spiritual themes, written in 2007/08 (approx.) and discarded, for various reasons.  Some I now feel able to read again, honour, edit a little, and revive. :-)

Monday, 2 May 2011

Neglected blogs!

I will start to update my blogs soon.  Honestly! 

Anyway, I've just had a really frustrating time trying to log into my blog.com account.  I finally got in, but it still didn't let me do a new post.  So I came on here instead, and even Blogger didn't take me straight to the right place - but I'm here now!  Anyway, I haven't got that much to say now that I am here, except to apologise for my recent lack of activity on all of my blogs. 

I don't really feel that spiritual at the moment.  I feel kind of stressed out, and...oh, I don't know.  My head is full of issues.  I have my spiritual moments, though.  I didn't celebrate Beltane, not even in my vague Quagan style.  I feel like I'm as rubbish at being Pagan as I was at being Christian.  But the feelings and beliefs are there!  Okay, so I just need some direction...Tell me about it!

More from me soon, hopefully...Blessed be. x