I am finding my way in spiritual terms, and I am not currently in "blogging about it" mode.
Starting to explore the site: www.buddhanet.net, as well as various other spiritual websites, including many personal blogs on spiritual themes. More links can be found on: http://paulapuddephatt.tripod.com.
I wrote a short poem, in the build up to this year's Winter Solstice. I just posted it on: www.paulapoems.blogspot.com. It also appears on: http://paulapuddephatt.tripod.com/poetry and I posted it on Tumblr. It was written spontaneously, and didn't go through any real editing process. It expresses deep emotions, a sense of spirituality, a moment captured - was written in a morning after very little sleep. I feel that the poem refers to my feelings about the moon goddess Rhiannon. I have talked about Rhiannon in previous blog posts.
That is all for now. Blessed be. xxx
Showing posts with label Wiccan Rede. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Wiccan Rede. Show all posts
Thursday, 22 December 2011
Saturday, 26 March 2011
OCD and being Quaker/Pagan
So, okay, I've dealt with being a dyspraxic, candle-phobic Pagan, and I thought that that was big. It isn't really though, because I'm Quagan, not Wiccan. I'm deeply influenced by Wicca, but I'm not Wiccan and I never will be. But, anyway, I still aim to live by the Wiccan Rede, and to me, that's the most important part. I mean, "An ye harm none, do as ye will" - who can argue with that? It's beautiful and it's true.
Anyway, the OCD - now that is bigger - especially the hygiene obsessions. How can you hold Quaker/Pagan beliefs and values and then do totally the opposite? I feel disconnected from Mother Earth because I am afraid to touch Her. The whole eco thing is a problem, and it's hard to instantly overcome it. Yes, I know that washing your hands every five minutes, using tumble driers, using vast quantities of cleaning wipes, etc are all totally wrong. And I can go on about the fact that I don't drive or go on foreign holidays and various other things, but that's not really the point. The things is: guilt. When I was into going to LDS and C. of E. churches, and into Christianity (apart from the fact that I always believed in the female Divine, etc), guilt was such a massive thing for me. Repentance - yes, in a way, that was perfect for me, because I want to punish myself constantly for not being good enough and messing up throughout my life. I like that Quakerism and Paganism doesn't have the same emphasis on guilt - but then I have all these issues, and I think that really I have as much Quaker guilt and Pagan guilt as I ever had Christian guilt, and I don't want to go into that. I want to fight my OCD and I want to fight my guilt feelings, too. Regretting the past is unavoidable, but I just have to dwell on it less. And stuff that I know I'm still doing wrong in my life, I need to work towards correcting or improving. Who is perfect, anyway?
I hope that I will go back to Quaker meetings eventually. That is still one of my ambitions. But I'm not so sure that Pagan Quakers go down well in Basingstoke, UK. I just know that I believe what I believe and I'm proud of what I believe, so I guess that they either accept me as I am or they don't - but, anyway, that is a whole issue in itself, which maybe I'll return to in a future blog post.
Anyway, the OCD - now that is bigger - especially the hygiene obsessions. How can you hold Quaker/Pagan beliefs and values and then do totally the opposite? I feel disconnected from Mother Earth because I am afraid to touch Her. The whole eco thing is a problem, and it's hard to instantly overcome it. Yes, I know that washing your hands every five minutes, using tumble driers, using vast quantities of cleaning wipes, etc are all totally wrong. And I can go on about the fact that I don't drive or go on foreign holidays and various other things, but that's not really the point. The things is: guilt. When I was into going to LDS and C. of E. churches, and into Christianity (apart from the fact that I always believed in the female Divine, etc), guilt was such a massive thing for me. Repentance - yes, in a way, that was perfect for me, because I want to punish myself constantly for not being good enough and messing up throughout my life. I like that Quakerism and Paganism doesn't have the same emphasis on guilt - but then I have all these issues, and I think that really I have as much Quaker guilt and Pagan guilt as I ever had Christian guilt, and I don't want to go into that. I want to fight my OCD and I want to fight my guilt feelings, too. Regretting the past is unavoidable, but I just have to dwell on it less. And stuff that I know I'm still doing wrong in my life, I need to work towards correcting or improving. Who is perfect, anyway?
I hope that I will go back to Quaker meetings eventually. That is still one of my ambitions. But I'm not so sure that Pagan Quakers go down well in Basingstoke, UK. I just know that I believe what I believe and I'm proud of what I believe, so I guess that they either accept me as I am or they don't - but, anyway, that is a whole issue in itself, which maybe I'll return to in a future blog post.
Saturday, 5 February 2011
The Wiccan Rede
"An ye harm none, do as ye will." I know that there are various versions of the full poem, but that is the important part: the Wiccan Rede. I'm not really Wiccan, but I'm influenced, and deeply inspired, by Wicca. And I absolutely love the Wiccan Rede. It is simple, beautiful, powerful and just so true.
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