Quiet

I am finding my way in spiritual terms, and I am not currently in "blogging about it" mode.

Starting to explore the site: www.buddhanet.net, as well as various other spiritual websites, including many personal blogs on spiritual themes.  More links can be found on: http://paulapuddephatt.tripod.com. 

I wrote a short poem, in the build up to this year's Winter Solstice.  I just posted it on: www.paulapoems.blogspot.com.  It also appears on: http://paulapuddephatt.tripod.com/poetry and I posted it on Tumblr.  It was written spontaneously, and didn't go through any real editing process.  It expresses deep emotions, a sense of spirituality, a moment captured - was written in a morning after very little sleep.  I feel that the poem refers to my feelings about the moon goddess Rhiannon.  I have talked about Rhiannon in previous blog posts.

That is all for now.  Blessed be. xxx

Struggling

See my other blog: http://www.paulap.blog.com/.

I have also been updating http://paulapuddephatt.tripod.com/poetry.

I have been researching the goddess Ariadne online, to some extent - interested initially because of her apparent influence on the poet Sylvia Plath.

I still pray to Rhiannon, when I can motivate myself to do so, and I did use my fairy oracle cards again yesterday.  The "Be Yourself" and "Pregnancy" cards came up again - plus a birthday related one and it is my birthday on 6/11.  I do wonder where the fairies are coming from.  It is getting very hard to "keep the faith" right now.  I feel so sad and unstable.  I also have ongoing physical health problems, still.  But see my other blog...

Goddess oracle cards

I drew Cordelia, and she told me that I had been indoors too long, and I needed to at least step outside, so I made myself go into the back garden briefly, and I do feel better for it, although I still have it in my head that I didn't really have time, as I'm too behind with household tasks, and now I've ended up doing this blog, too...I wasn't getting my tasks done anyway though, so that's silly!  I did take a peak at the meaning of Rhiannon's card too, even though I didn't draw it - knew there had to be a Rhiannon card - and she also emphasised that I needed to be outside and connect with nature more.  I know, it is true!  It's ridiculously accurate.

Yesterday, the fairies told me to "be myself", which is also accurate.  I find it so hard to believe that anyone likes me as I am.  I've had that card before, quite a while ago.

I'm glad that I'm using my oracle cards again...:-)

Rhiannon

I don't know if I did this "right", but I made my first contact with Rhiannon.  It feels right and I needed help, for myself and on behalf of friends.

It feels right.  I feel that she understands.

I asked the moon goddess to help with something specific before, and I felt her presence.  I feel and truly believe that she helped.  It wasn't for me.  It was for someone else.  But, well, I suppose it was kind of for me, too.  Definitely, yes, it was.

Anyway, a friend told me something today, and I have asked Rhiannon to help and bless her.  I have never understood before about the worship of specific deities, not in my heart.  I have believed in both God and Goddess for a long time.  That is why I couldn't continue with the Christian churches, after a certain point.  But this...I don't know...I can't even fully explain the: "Why Rhiannon?" question.  Maybe I shouldn't try.

Blessed be. x

So, let me see...

Time for another blog post.  I must admit that I'm becoming increasingly frustrated with some of the practical aspects of having my blogs here on Blogger/Blogspot.  I can't seem to reply to blog posts at the moment, for example...Oh well, we'll see how it goes.  I really don't want to have to give up this blog and start again elsewhere, and I'm not sure that any of the blog providers are ideal.  At least on Blogger/Blogspot, I can share poetry, and the software seems to understand the concept of stanza breaks!!!  And it has the added advantage that most other people who blog seem to be "over here", as it were. 

Anyway, I started "online researching" Rhiannon, the Welsh moon goddess, yesterday.  I feel drawn to her and so that's the direction I've started to go in - just seeing what the search engines find on her...Yes, and I can see aspects of her that I definitely relate to, and in that way, I understand why I am feeling the need to connect with her, on some level.

Blessed be.  Love and peace to you all.  xxx